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Embrace.

Embrace

I just wanted arched the most amazing, informing and touching documentary called Embrace.

It’s so interesting to me what other people, women especially think about their bodies. I have in the past been on a journey of self hate. I thought I needed bigger breasts, smaller thoughts, smaller nose, needed to be taller, needed a perlite bottom, you name it, I possibly wanted it.

Over the years I’ve learned to embrace and love my body. It has served me well. I’m a 37 year old mother of 2 beautiful children. A 4 year old boy and 2 year old girl. My body housed and fed these little people inside me whilst they grew and were nourished by me until they were ready and able to enter this world.

I’m blessed that I am healthy, sure I get the occasional ache and pain, possibly self caused? But I’m healthy.

I understand the mind set with body dismorphia. I am a qualified personal trainer (not practicing) I’m also a qualified counsellor, so I get it. I also have many friends and family who have some sort of unloving relationship with their bodies.

When I was in my teens I had an eating disorder. I was scared of being ‘fat’. I remember really clearly when I was 15 years old shopping with my mother and older sister for shorts for myself. We were in a shop and I was trying some on, I remember distinctly I tried on a size 8 and my mum suggested I get a size 10 as she thought they needed to be bigger. I remember having a ‘melt down’ crying and being really upset because in my mind, a size 10 was ‘fat’ and I never wanted to be ‘double digits’. I refused to buy them and remember being so set on ‘loosing weight’ and being ‘skinny’. My mum has dieted all of her life and she struggled with her weight most of her adult life and I remember her doing many different ‘diets’ whilst I was young. Some worked and some didn’t, this stuck with me and instead of having a healthy loving relationship with food, I began monitoring everything that I ate. I got so bad that if I was served a steak or sausage I would get paper towel and basically get all the ‘moisture’ which I thought was getting the ‘fat’ out of it. I never ate fried food and banned butter or margarine from my menu and cut out most carbs. If I are a carb it would be ‘brown’ because in my head, white was the evil. I was really miserable because I would ‘starve’ myself of a cookie or an icecream because I thought it would make me ‘fat’.

I’m my older teenage years I was a personal trainer. I was a PT for about 4 years and my mindset went from the need to be ‘super skinny’ to the need to be ‘strong’ and muscular. Which possibly wasn’t a bad mindset, but with most things that I did as a teenager, I did full throttle. I became really quite muscular and lost my breasts, (or what there was of them) and from behind I was often mistaken for a male. This was pretty tough on my self esteem so from that I would be extremely strict on my diet, and yes you guessed it, I became super skinny again weighing about 40kg. I’m 162cm tall and quite a petite build, but with protruding hips and collar bones, it was not a healthy look.

Throughout my years I’ve learned to love my body no matter what shape or size it is. Our bodies are basically our motors. They keep us ‘running’ and keep us alive.

It took me a good 10-15 years to love and appreciate what I have and how I treat my body, but I can finally say I’m in a ‘good mindset’ with my body. Sure I have cellulite and stretch marks. I have 2 beautiful and healthy children and I have my health. I still go through phases where I do want to change things about my appearance, but all in all I’m pretty happy.

This documentary, really resonated with me. Being comfortable in your own body and loving it for what it is and can do for you is the most important thing I think we should remember.

Please do yourself a favour, watch it.

Being a ‘walking skeleton’ is not admirable by most. This documentary speaks with many women from all walks of life. Inspiring and brave. Speaking about their body love and how they have had challenges yet overcome and now value and appreciate their bodies.

Love your body for what it can do for you. Not for what shape it is. Different shapes make us unique. We are all individuals.

Body shakers should be exactly that, ashamed that they feel they can belittle someone because of their appearance.

Thank you Renee Airya and Jade Beall for making this film.

Embrace the Documentary

Negative headspace.

Negative headspace.

Firstly I want to apologies for not writing something sooner.

I had been in a negative head space and it hasn’t been fun. I also want to apologise if my past posts have seemed ‘nasty’ ‘mean’ or ‘negative’ in anyway and have offered anyone of you.

I unfortunately became the victim of some horrible antics and gossip, and unfortunately, I allowed it to get the better of me.

I am putting my hand up here and taking blame, as I shouldn’t have allowed someone else’s negativity to consume me. I should have ignored it and not thought about it, but as most of us do, if we are spoken badly or illy about, we get our feelings hurt in some way, shape or form and it affects us in many ways including emotionally and physically.

I’m usually quite a strong person and don’t allow much to get to me. The recent negativity and lies have played on my mind and it consumed part of me and i was silly enough to lower myself to the standards of these people and their negativity. I was feeling anxious on many occasions, I started to worry about what strangers thought about me and i found myself feeling as though I needed to explain my feelings and or actions.

I know I can be outspoken and opinionated. I am the first to admit that. However I do listen rationally to all situations and evaluate my own thoughts and believes, I’m not ‘led astray’ in my opinions let’s say.

After speaking with my mentor, I have decided to rid all negativity from my life. It has worn me down, had me question my thoughts and beliefs, had me question my friendships and I’ve had to reevaluate what and who is actually an important part of my life and who and what should I let go.

If you have been in a ‘bad head space’ or been victim of others negativity. I urge you to try and not allow it to consume you. Try to rid it and allow yourself to feel ‘clean’ again.

Your mind, body and soul will thank you, so will your family.

Below are a few tips on how I’ve ‘cleaned’ the negativity from my life.

1. Don’t allow what other day to get to you – forget their words.
Oftentimes, we tell ourselves ‘no’ because we think others might not approve of our actions. First, it’s crucial to remember that we live our own lives, who do we need to please but ourselves?
2. Spend Time Positive People
Being around people who have a positive attitude and are generally happy people will only benefit your mindset. Positive thinkers will encourage you to try new things, follow your dreams, and motivate you even when you yourself want to avoid trying something new. They can also teach you to pinpoint your worst habits and help you to avoid them.
3. Stop Complaining
I’ll be the first to admit that I like to complain – my family, my workplace, whatever. Complaining, though, puts our mind in a position to make more excuses. We are not in charge of our destiny, our situation is. The next time you catch yourself complaining, stop immediately. Think instead of how to solve your problem and then try fixing it. You will be amazed at how small successes can breed a positive outlook on life.
4. Try Something New
A lot of negativity originates from the idea that we can’t do something we’ve never tried before. If you are always trying new things, though, you realize that the world is full of things you’ve never done. Start a new hobby or find a group of people doing something fun that is of interest to you. The more you do fun things the more positive your mindset will become.
5. Devote an Hour a Day to your Goals
Everyone, no matter who you are, has dreams, goals and aspirations but most of us think we don’t have the time to pursue them. Even if you are raising 10 kids and have two jobs, you can always find at least an hour of your day to devote to yourself. Perhaps something as small as walking home instead of the bus? Reading a book on the train? Meditating before you go to sleep? Anything that you wish you could do more of. Devoting time to your goals will boost your self-esteem and give you courage and happiness.

Remember, you never regret spending time doing something positive .
Try squashing any negativity from life. It may just surprise you how much better you feel.

Settlements and chores

Settlements and chores with marriage and divorce.

I recently read an article in Australia’s Marie Claire magazine about divorce settlements and how they are being settled.

To my shock these things are now being divided almost into a spreadsheet of what the women did around the house during the marriage and put a number on. For example, each load of washing was valued at $25.00.

After reading more into this breakdown it also detailed ‘babysitting duties’ at $25/hr, cooking at $15 per person per meal, school runs at $20/hr and so on.

So these women say have 3 children ranging from 5-15 years old and are married for 17 years and now getting settlements based on what they ‘earns’ during their marriage raising their families?

Please explain to me how this works?

I thought that being a mother was a blessing and not a job?

Why should we be paid or compensated for being given this privilege?

I understand that when we do become mothers and like myself some choose to become a stay at home mum and raise our children instead of keeping our careers and having our little ones in full time care, this is our choice. So why when things don’t go as planned are women expecting to get a lump dime pay out to compensate for loss of earnings?

The article I read had the woman seeking half her husbands superannuation, which I understand she hasn’t early any in the past however many years as she has been the home maker, but why is she entitled?

Along with half the super she is seeking the lump sum payment which looks a bit like this.

17 years
3 children
* 1 x load of washing per day @ $25 per load = $175 x 17 years = $546,976
* Baby sitting @ $25 per hour – 5 hours per day, = $125 x 5 days per week, the time she is at home alone each week day with the / her children = $625 x 15 years = $
* 6 x dinners per week @ $20 per meal for 5 people = $600 x 17 years = $
* Daily errands = $20 per hour @ 3hours per day = $60 x 7 days = $420 x 17 years = $
* Ironing @ $25 per basket x 2 baskets per week = $50 x 17 years =
* cleaning the family home @ $25 per hour x 3 days per week = $75 x 17 years = $
* Packing school lunches @ $10 per lunch, 3 x children.
10 years for the eldest @ 5 x days per week, $50 per week @ 40 weeks per year x 10 years = $20,000
5 years for the Middle child @ 5 days per week $10,000
1 year for the youngest @ 5 days per week $2,000
Total = $32,000

So this all equals $2,278.53 per week
Which equals $118,483.82 per year
Over 17 years equals $2,012,355.00

Keep in mind this doesn’t include her going for half the superannuation not half the combined assets.

Is this fair?

With the average Australian annual salary being $75,000 per annum what would you expect from your partner if you were to divorce after 17 years and raising 3 children?

Would you expect or want half his superannuation?

Would you expect a lump sum pay out similar to the above?

Who actually can afford to pay out over $2 million dollars in a divorce settlement?

Another article that I found interesting was one where the husband worked out what his wife’s annual salary should equate to if being paid on parental duties only. Surprising it’s $97,000 per annum – this is not including house hold chores.

http://www.mamamia.com.au/parenting/stay-at-home-salary/

Have you been divorced?

Do you find this fair?

Email me : noordinarymummy@gmail.com

Promises

A friend of mine just shared this – such beautiful words and something to think about.
Let’s face it, we all make promises at some stage, let’s make the right ones.

I Promise That I Don’t Need You.
Via Kate Roseon Apr 17, 2015

“I don’t want someone who promises me the moon and stars. I want someone who promises to lay on the grass and watch them with me.” ~ Unknown

Let us promise that we won’t ever make the empty sweet promises of new lovers, especially those that we can’t keep.

Instead, let our whispered promises taste of southern bourbon and smell like fresh cotton. Let them be entwined with a roughened honesty that only age and experience can inspire.

I promise that I will make you mad.

We cannot guarantee that we will always be bathed in the pink ethereal glow of happiness; but rather, and more importantly, even at the end of the day when I’m the one to have made your blood boil, say that you’ll still take this hand, and choose this life.

I promise that who I am now will not be who I am next year, next month, or even tomorrow.

Let us not promise that we won’t ever change, but guarantee that we will. Because that is the soulmate’s job to continually inspire change, to challenge the status quo, because we want to wake each other up to be the best possible version of our true self, even if it hurts.

I promise that I don’t need you, but that I do want you.

There’s no reason to say we can’t live without each other. We both know that we can, it may be slightly boring, mediocre even, but live we can. The difference is that we don’t want too, and that each day is made just a little better by our secret midnight confessions and slow morning coffee—and the other hundred small little things that we do to make this life incredible.

I promise that I don’t know how to be normal.

We are going to take the road less traveled; through late night art making, nude sunbathing, afternoon martini’s and parties late into the evening with too much wine and so much laughter. Thankfully, we don’t know how to do this life like everyone else. Even when we drive each other crazy with our differences we know that neither of us would have it any other way, because we’ve learned that there is so much more to life than fitting in.

I promise that I will feel like home.

No matter how many times we’ve been tangled in these pale sheets as the first rays of sunlight cast shadows across our dreams, we won’t ever have our fill. We will always touch each other’s bodies with the magic of the first time, sparks flying burning down everything around us. We’ve ruined each other for anyone else, and as we drift off to sleep, the softness of my bottom pressed against you, everything before there was a you and an I will become nothing but a distant memory.

I promise that I will never be good at doing what I’m supposed to.

We both are going to make a million mistakes. We are going to hurt each other, it’s a given. No matter how good our intentions are, we are each on our own journey, and that doesn’t mean we will always do the right thing. In fact, by definition of being on a true journey of discovering our own authenticity, I can guarantee we won’t. But I do know that wherever our journey takes us, we both will continue to improve.

Even if we don’t like the choices the other makes, we will accept them. We appreciate that neither of us is meant to be owned, or controlled, and instead we feel lucky to even be a part of each other’s story.

I promise that I will never ask for forever.

There is only today, and hopefully tomorrow, but that suddenly between midnight movies and sunrise sex the days will add up to a collection of the best of our lives.

Forever is a desperate promise of young love. Instead, let us take each wonderful day one day at a time and see where the adventure takes us, let the moon answer the questions the sun may ask, and in between it all, you’ll come to see that I’ll still be by your side.

“I don’t know where I’m going from here but I promise it won’t be boring.” ~ David Bowie

New year, new you!

New year new you!

So with all the New Years resolutions, a lot of people will have some resolution to do with fitness or training or the gym.

So this isn’t a blog about working out, instead it’s a wardrobe re vamp on your work out clothes!

A lot of us fall victim to monochrome of basics black, white, navy and sometimes grey. Be gone with that and add some colour!

We all know colour can enhance our mood so why not help get us motivated also? It is understood that bright colours evoke energy so why not try to add some bright colours into your workout wardrobe?

I understand some of us like to wear dark clothes especially on our bottom half to ‘cover’ or not enhance our assets however that doesn’t mean plain boring black!

I’ve recently purchased a pair of black tights but with a leopard print on them which is a shiny black. Imagine Matt black tights with a shiny print! I love them, not boring and yet still black!

Why not also add a bright sports bra under your top? I think it’s cute having a little peak of colour from under your clothing.

Or if you dare, wear a complete brighter / coloured outfit.

Don’t be scared to clash prints either, it’s the gym, or fitness training – not a fashion parade. Just be comfortable and remember your not there to impress with your outfit, however I do know it’s nice to look the part and wear nice / cute / sexy / impressive workout gear.

Workout gear also doesn’t have to be expensive. I’ve purchased many work out clothing from cotton on body, target, k-mart, forever 21 and other stores that are not exclusively targeted at workout gear or are ‘labels’. These clothes are durable, comfortable, wearable and long lasting.

Working out can be as expensive or as budget friendly as you like, just remember to have fun with it and add colour, you will be surprised how good you feel when your wearing colour and it has been proven to be a mood enhancer!

I’ve listed some colours and the moods that they enhance, hopefully they help you to choose a brighter happier workout wardrobe!

Red = anger, determination, ambition, energy, passion, action.

Pink = unconditional love, nurturing, success, passion.

Yellow = strong mind, intellect. It is optimistic and cheerful.

Orange = social communication, optimism.

Blue = trust, peace, loyalty, integrity.

Green = balance, growth, self-resilient,

Good luck and enjoy!

Christmas!

Christmas – what does it mean to you?

Well I love this time of year, to me it’s all about spending time with your family and friends. Yes it’s great to receive gifts but to me the gift of love is more substantial and being able to share this time of year with loved ones is much better than anything materialistic. For me anyway.

There are so many homeless and other people that don’t have luxuries and come this time of year they generally miss out on special dinners, lunches, gifts and time with loved ones. I always give to to Salvation Army and also the Red Cross, more so at this time of year and always donate canned food for the homeless so that they have something to eat, especially at this time of year.

If I were to ask you 4 things that remind you of Christmas what would you say?

My 4 things would be :
• Family – sharing stories and spending time together.

• Food – I tend to over eat at Christmas, ham, trifle, prawns all the yummy things that are traditional for an Australian Christmas.

• Carol’s  – singing with family especially my nieces and nephew and now my 2 year old little boy. Jingle bells, Santa Clause is coming to town, silent night and all the other traditional songs that make Christmas special.

• Christmas Tree – I know I’ve says it’s all about family but this year putting up the Christmas tree was very special for me as I’m 4 mo this pregnant with my bub number 2 and my little man helped me decorate the Christmas tree with all our special things. I’m normally so pedantic about things being in special places and it looking good but this year to see the satisfaction in his little face of being able to help mummy was priceless.

I’m not religious but I am christened catholic and do attend church on occasion, not every week but I do believe in God and have read the bible.

What does Christmas mean to you?

Are you religious?

I googled ‘what is Christmas’ and this is what I found.

I’d love to hear what makes your Christmas special.

Christmas or Christmas Day (Old English: Crīstesmæsse, meaning “Christ’s Mass”) is an annual festival commemorating the birth of Jesus Christ, observed generally on December 25[4][8][9] as a religious and cultural celebration among billions of people around the world. A feast central to the Christian liturgical year, it closes the Advent season and initiates the twelve days of Christmastide, which ends after the twelfth night. Christmas is a public holiday in many of the world’s nations, is celebrated culturally by a large number of former or non-Christian people, and is an integral part of the Christmas and holiday season.
While the birth year of Jesus is estimated among modern historians to have been between 7 and 2 BC, the exact month and day of his birth are unknown. His birth is mentioned in two of the four canonical gospels. By the early-to-mid 4th century, the Western Christian Church had placed Christmas on December 25, a date later adopted in the East, although some churches celebrate on the December 25 of the older Julian calendar, which currently corresponds to January 7 in the modern-day Gregorian calendar. The date of Christmas may have initially been chosen to correspond with the day exactly nine months after early Christians believed Jesus to have been conceived or with one or more ancient polytheistic festivals that occurred near southern solstice (i.e., the Roman winter solstice); a further solarconnection has been suggested because of a biblical verse identifying Jesus as the “Sun of righteousness”.

The celebratory customs associated in various countries with Christmas have a mix of pre-Christian, Christian, and secular themes and origins. Popular modern customs of the holiday include gift giving, Christmas music and caroling, an exchange of Christmas cards, church celebrations, a special meal, and the display of various Christmas decorations, including Christmas trees, Christmas lights, nativity scenes, garlands, wreaths, mistletoe, and holly. In addition, several closely related and often interchangeable figures, known as Santa Claus, Father Christmas, Saint Nicholas, and Christkind, are associated with bringing gifts to children during the Christmas season and have their own body of traditions and lore. Because gift-giving and many other aspects of the Christmas festival involve heightened economic activity among both Christians and non-Christians, the holiday has become a significant event and a key sales period for retailers and businesses. The economic impact of Christmas is a factor that has grown steadily over the past few centuries in many regions of the world.

Inexpensive games for babies & toddlers!

Fun inexpensive games for babies and toddlers.

Baby Games Idea #1: Peekaboo

Peekaboo is an easy and inexpensive game that will provide hours of fun for your baby. With younger babies, try hiding your face behind your hands, that way they she still knows you’re there. You can use fabrics and materials to cover your face too. In time, your baby will learn to pull back the fabric to find you. As they get older and begin to understand object permanence, you’ll be able to leave the room and jump back in shouting “Peekaboo!”. Funny faces and voices add extra layers of enjoyment to this game. My little guy loves this and plays it around corners in our home and out in the garden hiding behind plants etc. it’s a great game for all ages.
Baby Games Idea #2: Where Has Toy Gone?

This game can be played with any toy, it doesn’t have to be big nor small, perhaps your little ones favorite toy. Take the toy and display it for your baby, then take some material and cover up the toy. Then try and find it again. This game teaches your baby about object permanence. As your baby grows older, they will begin to understand that objects still exist, even if she can’t see them. When they have worked this out, they will start to pull back the material to find the missing toy. They may even hide the toy for you to find too.

Baby Games Idea #3: Sensory Time

This game can be altered and repeated as many times as you like. All you need is a muffin baking tray, and a handful of objects to put in it. Be careful not to choose anything small that could be a choking hazard. You don’t need to buy any fancy objects for this game, just everyday items from around your house will do. Empty toilet rolls, dried pasta, frozen peas, large beads, leaves from the garden, washing up sponges, ping pong balls and plastic spoons would all make great items for this game. Simply divide your chosen items amongst the muffin tray, and let your baby explore. Your baby will enjoy mouthing, touching and moving the items about.

This is all about taste, sight, touch and smell. They will also learn about putting things inside other things and size difference etc.

Baby Games Idea #4: Splash Time

This game is suitable once your baby can sit up unaided, or you can play it earlier with the assistance of a bath seat. Firstly you need to set up a splash pool. I have one of those half shell pools from bunnings. Make sure the water is the correct temperature for your baby. You don’t want it too cold not too hot. This Gould also be a great game for a warm day. Provide a selection of pouring containers and water toys. You may have some bath toys already, or you could use empty plastic containers and bottles. Teach your baby how to fill and empty the containers, how to splash and how to enjoy the water. Make sure the water stays warm so that your baby doesn’t end up miserable because the water has turned cold. If using a paddling pool, make sure your little one is adequately protected from the sun (preferably by being shaded).

Baby Games Idea #5: Feel This

This game is great for younger babies, and can be adapted for older babies who might like to hold the objects themselves. Babies love exploring new things, and this game focuses on their sense of touch. You’ll need a selection of different textures for them to feel. Feathers, silk scarves, sponge and bubble wrap are all suitable suggestions. For younger babies, gently drag the fabrics across her body and talk to her about what you’re doing. Explain that things feel soft or squishy, so she can start to understand the meaning of different words. For an older baby, explore the objects yourself and let your little one copy. We started this at gymbaroo and although my little guy is almost 2 he still loves exploring new feelings.

Eating disorders!

imageI am a huge supporter of the butterfly foundation. Here is a little clip on eating disorders that I personally found interesting.

I know I’ve said it before, but, if you are suffering from an eating disorder or know anyone who is. Please seek help.

You can also contact me and I can help find the right contact for your area.

Noordinarymummy@gmail.com

Do you have a fantasy?

Fantasies.

I’ve been reading a few books lately and they are mostly biographies however a couple have been fiction novels that have got me thinking.

A recent read is called ‘just one night’ by Kyra Davis. Kyra is a New York Times best selling author and this book certainly does not let her down.

It’s a great book about a women who has the successful corporate career, a long term boyfriend whom she believes she will marry and the ‘proper’ family whom have all the silver linings laid out for her. One night in Vegas with her best friend changes it all though.

The book goes into detail about fantasies and what is expected from certain people and families and what is and isn’t ‘appropriate’.

In one part of the book the lead character is speaking with her best friend about fantasises and the best friend describes why they are a fantasy and why not to act on fantasises, to keep them as a fantasy and the excitement of that to yourself. Sometimes when fantasy’s are played out the excitement isn’t quite the same.

Well different people will have different opinions on this but the book had me thinking about my fantasies and would I ever act on them?

Most fantasies are kept secret as the best friend in the novel suggests. Some are bought to life and some are keep deep inside of oneself.

Some may be sexual fantasies about tall, tanned, well built, defined, handsome men starring at you from across the bar, then slowly approaching you but never taking his almond shaped green eyes away from your’s, keeping the intensity and keeping you intrigued. His body is built like that of a professional athlete, strong, muscular and visible through his fitted business shirt. He finally riches your side and you know there are no words needed. You both know heard going to happen and neither of you want it to stop. The conversation is short, you reach for your clutch and follow him to get a taxi. He opens the door for you and no longer are you in the taxi but you are kissing each other passionately, like you have never felt such lust or want for anyone ever. Hands are fumbling, grabbing and pulling each other closer. You reach his place and make your way in….,

Or your fantasy could be about owning a wonderful home on the beach side. Having a fast car, fantasy zing about a wonderful office with water views…..

Whatever your fantasy they are neither wrong or right. We each have individual needs and wants it’s weather or not we choose to bring them to life that keeps them a fantasy or makes them real.
The encyclopaedia definition of fantasy is :

fantasy
ˈfantəsi,-zi/
noun
1.
the faculty or activity of imagining impossible or improbable things.
“his researches had moved into the realms of fantasy”
synonyms: imagination, creativity, fancy, invention, originality, vision, speculation, make-believe, daydreaming, reverie More
antonyms: truth, realism
a fanciful mental image, typically one on which a person often dwells and which reflects their conscious or unconscious wishes.
plural noun: fantasies
“the notion of being independent is a child’s ultimate fantasy”
synonyms: dream, daydream, pipe dream, flight of fancy, fanciful notion, wish, wishful thinking; More
an idea with no basis in reality.
“it is a misleading fantasy to suggest that the bill can be implemented”
a genre of imaginative fiction involving magic and adventure, especially in a setting other than the real world.
synonyms: myth, legend, fable, fairy tale, romance;
More
antonyms: realism
2.
a fantasia.
verbliterary
verb: fantasy; 3rd person present: fantasies; past tense: fantasied; past participle: fantasied; gerund or present participle: fantasying
1.
imagine the occurrence of; fantasize about.
“it is ludicrous to fantasy ‘disinventing’ the hydrogen bomb”

So I ask, do you have fantasy?

Are they a little ‘taboo’?

Would you act on them?

Drop me an email –

Noordinarymummy@gmail.com

Read more about this novel below.

http://www.kyradavis.com/p/just-one-night-series.html?m=1